Hello UK

Currently blogging in the hotel in UK. It's 5.05pm here and I'm still having jetlags. Don't blame me, but it only gets dark on 10pm, and the sun streaming in, lets say, 3am? Needless to say, it's summer here and trust me, the weather is no better than in Malaysia. Morning is exceptional, though. Waking up to walk out of the door to have a gust of cool wind rush through your face freshens you up for the day, and that is the best part of the day.

It was pretty fun. It isn't my first time here, but kc's following this time around which explains the adrenalin rush. Since day 1 upon arrival, I've been spending all day and night shopping. My feet knows no pain while I'm in the shopping mode, but the after math was tragic. I would just lie on the hotel bed til I'm sleepy, and I'll sleep. Times this routine by 3, and that's what I did for 3 consecutive days in London. Obviously, kc was a little put off by this whole shopping plan thingy, but, you know, girls =). Not to forget the pleasant present KC got me. I love it to bits though I know it puts a hole in your wallet haha, but I really appreciate it with every ounce of me. Love you dearly baby.

Don't really know what's up for tomorrow but I smell tonnes of walking, which spells B-A-D. I was never catered for walking. My body frame, my toothpick-ed legs, my low stamina and my tendency to stay under shady oak trees are all for indoor purposes, but my sister, who couldn't careless, sprints her way through every road giving me an extremely hard time catching up with her pace. I hope tomorrow's weather would be friendly. Not the scorching sun, but something breezy or cooling, perfect condition for a stroll around the town.

On another note, results are out TOMORROW!!! It kills me and my trip. I don't want to be upset on my trip here. It's not what I'm ready to face. Everyone's being cynical now except for those erm...outcast which have a brain capacity of Einstein. Do wish me luck. I hope I don't have to look forward for August, but September =)) That's all for now. Photo's will be uploaded the moment.........the laziness in me dies off =))

Flash Backs

Yesterday was hectic I would say. My eye laid wide open up til 5 in the morning and I have these flashbacks of what happened between me and someone so close to me not too long ago which, to my notice, brought tears to my eyes.
That someone was my closest friend ever which I've known for practically my whole life. We've been through every ups and downs of life together ever since we were a child and for all you know, she is someone I look up to as a role model. Someone whom I wish to follow her footsteps, someone which have all the criteria of being a good child or a student, to me at least. Though I was pretty much living under her shadow of success, I didn't really mind, in fact, I was proud even. We've had some bad times where arguments never fail to come and go, but it never last for more than a day, thats a guarentee. We never carry our anger and vengence to the next day, in fact, it will all be forgotten within a couple of hours. However, things started changing a few years back. Something happened and this bright and striking role model figure of her was suddenly blurred to merely shades which can't even make it up. Arguments that we had last time that never lasted a day, now lasted for months. Our conversation was somewhat awkward. Though we never speak about it to each other, but we know, that there's something inside us which the both of us refuses acknowledge it. This something had slowly become an issue to me and I started building barriers from almost everyone. It soured to a point where I would just turn on a total- ignore mode, minding my own business. My answers are just a plain yes or no, nothing more, nothing less. Things has gone way out of hand after months of enduring situations like this and finally, she spoke up trying to loosen the tension around us, but, foolishly, I refused. I did not want to talk to her because I was so shallow at that point in time to be against her when she needed my support the most. I could even remember, I pretty much ruined her birthday by making her cry. She came back all the way from her birthday dinner just so she could settle everything with me once more, but I hold up my guards and turn my back against her. I didn't even wished her a simple Happy Birthday.
Till one day, it was either a "do or die" day. None of us could tolerate this tense situation anymore, hence, she resorted to my parents. They tried to talk things out with us, but being as stubborn as I am, I literally ran out from the house, trying to avoid everything that was about to come. This rage in me was really eating me inside out. Things didn't get settled as wished, and yet again, it went on until up to one day, I was thinking the whole day about my foolish attitude towards someone I care for so much. Why would I want to hurt someone that I held so closely to me? Why would I want to hurt someone that I love equally with my parents? I finally let down my guard and apologized. A simple sorry from me made everything turn to a brighter view. I realised that during that point in time, I was not suppose to go against her no matter how much I hated it, but to stand by her side, cause I'm the only one she has, and she's the only one I have.
Now, we're closer than ever. I opened up so much to her and whenever I'm sad, she never fails to bring her little Donut to cheer me up knowing that I have this dog fetish. She is now going to be a lawyer graduate and still someone I look up to, forever and always, because she's my one and only SISTER.

Life's been a little hectic lately and yes I might be exaggerating a little but I do feel that life had sucked out the GLLLOOOWWWW in me. =D Classes are crazy as per usual and my finals is just lurking around the corner which explains the hectic life. Will be enduring and enjoying it at the same time. =)

On another note, despite the hectic-ness, happiness has also invaded my life recently. I would be lying if I were to say I never give a thought about it anymore. Every now and then, my thoughts do sway back to the past giving me a tinge of uncomfortable feeling but I've learned to accept it with grace. In fact, I felt redundant trying to fight the thought of it. Much patience and perseverance draws us one step closer to the Big TWO and I feel nothing but happy and glad about us and I hope this feeling will last forever and always.

I love you at hello, and I'll love you at goodbye.

Boringggg

I hate moments like this. In the gloomy evening, seems like it's going to rain but it's not, where everyone is packing their bags leaving for home while I'm stuck here with nowhere to go. Oh well, this might just be a training ground for me for my level of tolerance ANNNDDD perseverance. =) Call me cynical but everyone would share the same feelings as I do now if they were so blessed to be situated in my position now. I hope everything would brighten up a bit when I get home...some cupcakes maybe? Mind my addiction for cupcakes but they are just to deliciously addictive. What's more, they look as cute as can be. Now how do you resist THAT?

I'm sorry for the lack of photos here as I intelligently lost my camera's charger, hence, no camera to use and also conveniently lost my phone's USB cable, hence, no medium to transfer photos from phone to comp. =( Give me some time ok? I'll get things done real soon as I desperately need both of them.

I can't wait to go back home for Chinese New Year!! Somehow I just have this good feeling about it and the anticipation kills. I have to pull through one more week of classes and I'm over and done with...........for now. Lots of new clothes, lots of new shoes, lots of cookies, and lots of ANG PAUSS!! Just the thought of it is enough to drain all your motivation of studying away and just wait quietly for it to come. =D Shall go back home, have my dinner, shower, study, and maybe tv and I'll call it a day. A pathetic one may I add.

Till then! =)

Confession

After days and days of tears and a roller coaster of emotions, I've finally settled down nicely in front of my laptop, with a cup of hot milo sitting soundly on the table. I've calmed myself down after lodging much verbal complaints to my fellow friends and of course my dearest sis and I've learn to believe whatever kc says. This whole experience opened up my eyes, relationship wise and friendship wises and I don't think it would be easy for me to forget everything and live life like the way I do. Moving on's a must, but this is a lesson I've learned for life that I will always bear in mind to have barriers with certain people. Stop proving yourself. I don't want to know and I don't want to know how many guys actually likes you and stuff. You think I'll believe or even listen? Seriously I think its a whole lot of crap. All I want now is to start afresh with my bf and I hope YOU won't be interrupting that every now and then. Keep your hands to yourself, not to people's boyfriend. Especially to someone whom you're pretty close with before.

I can't forgive and forget. I can do it with kc, but not with anyone else. This incident is caused by your own hands, causing me to loose a friend.

Why so far?

Sorry for the extremely long hiatus. I'm just too lazy to run my fingers on the lappie's keyboard. Kinda reminds me of those assignment days. Well, basically my update today will be about my one and only sister which already left us for UK. =( I didn't really felt the twitch until the day after she flew, when I woke up realising that she's already in another country with a totally different time zone. Its just complicate things now and it IS hard to communicate seeing that Malaysia is actually 8 hours faster than UK. Somehow I just felt depress about it. I hope she's happy there and hopefully she knows that whoever she misses here, misses her too, well that includes MUA, daddie, mummie, kenrick, nicky, and little donut (the uber cute toy poodle of hers and kenrick). No more sister for me to call when I'm having troubles, no more sister as a shopping companion, no more sister to nag the shit out of me to clean up my side of the room, no more sister to share my juicy secrets and sorrow. Can you just imagine that? Its like I've been seeing my sister's face practically everyday since I was born, or maybe since I learned how to see. I feel like I'm the only child now that my sister is halfway across the world and I enjoy the attention from my parents :D Ironically speaking.

Here are some pictures mainly just to inject some life into this dying blog (dead blog).

Mummie's little girls

miss you much.

SISTER!!! I MISS YOU!! WE MISS YOU!!!

Owh and on another note, thank you baby for the pressie. Really appreciate it. It made my day. Love you kc

Insanely Insane

I'm in a bad mood now. I feel like throwing anything that I come across physically. But, I couldn't do so without looking like a barbaric bitch, hence, the suppression. :D I'm uber depressed with my classes and convineintly, tomorrow I'll be having my 8am to 4pm again. Being in the last hour of lecture really reminds me of Ms. Ong. Can't survive withouht a toothpick to pry my eyes open. And on top of that, I have to wait around 30 minutes or so for my, well, chauffer to arrive. Suicidal.com. I would much prefer to refer him as a chauffer now or maybe ah mat because he only drives me around, and nothing else. No talking, no conversations especially when we reach home O.o. Suicidal act no.2. I have to study everytime I reach home or else I'll be the slacking ones, or maybe the ONLY one slacking behind despite the number of smarty pants I have in my class. Styudying without conversing, suicidal act no.3. No more supper. Studying and having ridiculously long hour of classes is just plain tiring and it's beyond comprehension. What more if you can't fill your stomach in the middle of the night BECCAAAUUUSSSEEE...someone doesn't wants to go out late, just incase he got attacked, tired, tomorrow have to wake up early bla bla bla.. Teach me how to put up with these situations!!! It's really driving me nuts!!! I can't live in situation like this...FOR NUTS!!!!! Dear Lord, do point me in the right direction as I deeply need your guidence.

WAAAAAAIIIITTTTT!!!! Walau...everything also must wait meh? Can die lo. After class wait, come back home wait, want to makan wait!!!! Excuse my language but WHAT THE FUCK????!!!!