Life's been a little hectic lately and yes I might be exaggerating a little but I do feel that life had sucked out the GLLLOOOWWWW in me. =D Classes are crazy as per usual and my finals is just lurking around the corner which explains the hectic life. Will be enduring and enjoying it at the same time. =)

On another note, despite the hectic-ness, happiness has also invaded my life recently. I would be lying if I were to say I never give a thought about it anymore. Every now and then, my thoughts do sway back to the past giving me a tinge of uncomfortable feeling but I've learned to accept it with grace. In fact, I felt redundant trying to fight the thought of it. Much patience and perseverance draws us one step closer to the Big TWO and I feel nothing but happy and glad about us and I hope this feeling will last forever and always.

I love you at hello, and I'll love you at goodbye.

Boringggg

I hate moments like this. In the gloomy evening, seems like it's going to rain but it's not, where everyone is packing their bags leaving for home while I'm stuck here with nowhere to go. Oh well, this might just be a training ground for me for my level of tolerance ANNNDDD perseverance. =) Call me cynical but everyone would share the same feelings as I do now if they were so blessed to be situated in my position now. I hope everything would brighten up a bit when I get home...some cupcakes maybe? Mind my addiction for cupcakes but they are just to deliciously addictive. What's more, they look as cute as can be. Now how do you resist THAT?

I'm sorry for the lack of photos here as I intelligently lost my camera's charger, hence, no camera to use and also conveniently lost my phone's USB cable, hence, no medium to transfer photos from phone to comp. =( Give me some time ok? I'll get things done real soon as I desperately need both of them.

I can't wait to go back home for Chinese New Year!! Somehow I just have this good feeling about it and the anticipation kills. I have to pull through one more week of classes and I'm over and done with...........for now. Lots of new clothes, lots of new shoes, lots of cookies, and lots of ANG PAUSS!! Just the thought of it is enough to drain all your motivation of studying away and just wait quietly for it to come. =D Shall go back home, have my dinner, shower, study, and maybe tv and I'll call it a day. A pathetic one may I add.

Till then! =)

Confession

After days and days of tears and a roller coaster of emotions, I've finally settled down nicely in front of my laptop, with a cup of hot milo sitting soundly on the table. I've calmed myself down after lodging much verbal complaints to my fellow friends and of course my dearest sis and I've learn to believe whatever kc says. This whole experience opened up my eyes, relationship wise and friendship wises and I don't think it would be easy for me to forget everything and live life like the way I do. Moving on's a must, but this is a lesson I've learned for life that I will always bear in mind to have barriers with certain people. Stop proving yourself. I don't want to know and I don't want to know how many guys actually likes you and stuff. You think I'll believe or even listen? Seriously I think its a whole lot of crap. All I want now is to start afresh with my bf and I hope YOU won't be interrupting that every now and then. Keep your hands to yourself, not to people's boyfriend. Especially to someone whom you're pretty close with before.

I can't forgive and forget. I can do it with kc, but not with anyone else. This incident is caused by your own hands, causing me to loose a friend.

Why so far?

Sorry for the extremely long hiatus. I'm just too lazy to run my fingers on the lappie's keyboard. Kinda reminds me of those assignment days. Well, basically my update today will be about my one and only sister which already left us for UK. =( I didn't really felt the twitch until the day after she flew, when I woke up realising that she's already in another country with a totally different time zone. Its just complicate things now and it IS hard to communicate seeing that Malaysia is actually 8 hours faster than UK. Somehow I just felt depress about it. I hope she's happy there and hopefully she knows that whoever she misses here, misses her too, well that includes MUA, daddie, mummie, kenrick, nicky, and little donut (the uber cute toy poodle of hers and kenrick). No more sister for me to call when I'm having troubles, no more sister as a shopping companion, no more sister to nag the shit out of me to clean up my side of the room, no more sister to share my juicy secrets and sorrow. Can you just imagine that? Its like I've been seeing my sister's face practically everyday since I was born, or maybe since I learned how to see. I feel like I'm the only child now that my sister is halfway across the world and I enjoy the attention from my parents :D Ironically speaking.

Here are some pictures mainly just to inject some life into this dying blog (dead blog).

Mummie's little girls

miss you much.

SISTER!!! I MISS YOU!! WE MISS YOU!!!

Owh and on another note, thank you baby for the pressie. Really appreciate it. It made my day. Love you kc

Insanely Insane

I'm in a bad mood now. I feel like throwing anything that I come across physically. But, I couldn't do so without looking like a barbaric bitch, hence, the suppression. :D I'm uber depressed with my classes and convineintly, tomorrow I'll be having my 8am to 4pm again. Being in the last hour of lecture really reminds me of Ms. Ong. Can't survive withouht a toothpick to pry my eyes open. And on top of that, I have to wait around 30 minutes or so for my, well, chauffer to arrive. Suicidal.com. I would much prefer to refer him as a chauffer now or maybe ah mat because he only drives me around, and nothing else. No talking, no conversations especially when we reach home O.o. Suicidal act no.2. I have to study everytime I reach home or else I'll be the slacking ones, or maybe the ONLY one slacking behind despite the number of smarty pants I have in my class. Styudying without conversing, suicidal act no.3. No more supper. Studying and having ridiculously long hour of classes is just plain tiring and it's beyond comprehension. What more if you can't fill your stomach in the middle of the night BECCAAAUUUSSSEEE...someone doesn't wants to go out late, just incase he got attacked, tired, tomorrow have to wake up early bla bla bla.. Teach me how to put up with these situations!!! It's really driving me nuts!!! I can't live in situation like this...FOR NUTS!!!!! Dear Lord, do point me in the right direction as I deeply need your guidence.

WAAAAAAIIIITTTTT!!!! Walau...everything also must wait meh? Can die lo. After class wait, come back home wait, want to makan wait!!!! Excuse my language but WHAT THE FUCK????!!!!

I'm in between classes right now and I have nothing to do because my dear soulmate Vivienne Chin is absent for tutorials!! Abandning me alone in class to rot.

I'm baffled between love and hatred. But things improved comparatively. I'm pretty happy about it but this fake smile that i have to put every now and then won't envolope me for long. I'm trying my best to bring out the best of me and I hope I'll get to at least pull something off. Sitting in my room without any apparent movement brings me back to the old days. Hearing the clock ticking to clearly that makes each and every second counts and it feels like a year to hear 60 ticks. Oh my..guess I'll be turning in to bed after my 10am class or should I opt to visit the library? *silence* Ok maybe I should just have a nap first :D

Off to class now.

Smile and You'll be Fine.

SMIIIILLLLEEEEE!!!! Thats apparently the best antidote.

I have tonnes of things to complain and sadly, I can't complain it verbally at the moment, so, i shall blog.

My timing is all upside down. I sleep during the day, and wake up during the night. Why? I'm acting like I'm already having my holidays. This is soooo not good. How am I going to wake up for my 8am papers? I'll be either skipping the whole paper (not a good option) or I'll turn up for my exams like a ghost that has just been shredded on its way the the exam hall.

Next, is my face seems to be a breeding ground for pimples. Why? Because of my upside down timng? And I tend to look 10 years older. My skin is so saggy that I happen to look like Droopey and Droople.

Put the blame on EXAMS!!! Causing me to have a ghost face. Wth?!

Janey Fongy is finally over and done with her exams and yes, I will most likely to be going out with her A LOT!!! Babi syok giler la you Jane!

p.s study study study and stop thinking!!

p.p.s corgi puppies are uber cute. ME want one!!!